all gonna turn out just fine

feel like long time didn't visit school

seems like a bit missing tim...>.<

hmm~

I apply holiday since middle of august

until today~

it's about a month dy~

feel so lazy

every day woke up at 8 o'clock

gotta to go McD to study

and do my revision

as soon as

trial is at the corner

every day study study and study

started to feel bored

i wondered when can i lead to a life without books

every day facing books

i think i going crazy..>.<

My sister started her college life early of the year

felt so envy to her actually

cause she going to have her freedom life

but many crux we facing throughout this year

she has to pay the pricey courses fees every month

many things

my parents doesn't want to let me know

because they thought we're still a children

can't help many on their problems

but at least

to let them know that

we're a family

we have to live together everyday

and we have to spend our life together until the end

so why not

why doesn't want to share with us ~

mummy warn me

not to tell anyone

what she'd told me

i'm speechless that moment

even when she tried to tell me

but helpless

i can't do anything

we're going to lose our ‘palace'

a place where i growth up

but that's the only way

to reduce some of the burden

that they bear until today

so

since then i have a dream

that is

to study hard

i want lead to a better life

so that i can bring my family

go around the world

but i find that's hard for me

i afraid i can't accomplish that simple wishes~